September 01, 2010

{Photo credit: Caroline Fontenot}

provision: The arrangement or preparation beforehand, as for the doing of something, the meeting of needs, the supplying of means, etc.

Provision means that everything is arranged and provided for before it happens or plays out. And what comfort in knowing that this arranger is God.

I struggle with wanting to know everything right now. Where will we live next? When will we have kids? What is the next step in my life? When will we have enough in our savings? When will our debt go away?

I want to know the answers so badly because there is a sense of control in the knowing. If I know where we will live next, I can start planning. If I know when we'll have kids, I can start planning. If I know when we can get our finances how we want them to be, I can start planning. My day job is planning, so why wouldn't my entire life revolve around that, too?

God knows I'm a planner. He made me that way. He made me organized and analytical and a maker of lists. But with that comes the need to be in control and the need to have all of my ducks in a row and the need to know how everything is panning out at every moment. It's a curse and a blessing.

Like I said, God knows I'm a planner. He knew I had a plan for my life and that my timeline was all set in my head. I would be single for a couple more years, move back to Texas, meet someone and get married some time before the age of thirty and then have kids. But besides that, if I happened to meet someone, we would have to date for at least a year. And then be engaged for at least a year. And then get married. It was set and I was sticking to it.

And then I met Chris. And my whole life plan was shaken up.

We met in June. We were in engaged in September. We were married the next March. And we are now going into our sixth month of marriage.

God's provision for my life was bigger than I could have ever imagined. He knew that in the deepest crevices of my heart, there was a longing to be married and be loved that way. He stepped in, ahead of me, and fulfilled His provision that was decided upon before I was even a thought in my parents' mind.

He continues to step ahead of me and fulfill His promise of provision constantly. And I can't wait to see how the rest of His provision plays out.

Steep yourself in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Don't be afraid of missing out… The Father wants to give you the very kingdom itself.
{Luke 12:30-32 The Message}

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  1. Woo woo! Love it! Thanks for choosing my word :) MYLY!

  2. God has done much the same with my life. I had decided never to get married, ever. I then met my husband in November, was engaged the next May, and married in September. We celebrate two years of marriage this month.

    His provision and plans are always so much better than ours. And I am a planner, so I know how you feel with wanting to know every detail.


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