Finding joy in the doing.

July 10, 2011

I’m hustling around the house, tackling the busy in an otherwise quiet evening. I clear off the remnants from another week night’s dinner in what seems like one swift move, head towards the stairs as I pick up the pair of shoes that have been sitting there since who knows when, take each step up at an extra-fast pace, turning into the bedroom as I toss the shoes onto the closet floor. The night is no where near over. I have lists to tackle, blog posts to write, laundry to sort through. Why am I the only one up and moving?

I walk into the bathroom and catch myself in the mirror. I’m just so tired of the doing, I say. I look extra long at my face, tired from the day to day.

Tired of the dinners I cook after a full day of work that don’t always come with a thank you. Tired of the cards I send that go unacknowledged. Tired of the sweet notes I leave that don’t get returned. Tired of the gifts I spend weeks, even months, thinking about and gathering that get tossed aside as quickly as they were opened.
Tired of always being the one to do while desperately yearning for someone else to do for me.

I crumble underneath my comforter, exhausted from the effort. I feel drained as my tank sits at empty. It’s been several weeks since I have last felt full and I have nothing left in me to give.

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3 comments:

  1. I really enjoyed and understood your post today. And I was INSPIRED to throw out more grace when really all I want to do is scream.

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  2. Thank you for sharing this today. I get it too. I think it is a universal theme. Sometimes we're feeling tired and heavy, under the load. Only when we look at Christ, can we find joy, as you so eloquently expressed. Then He always gives us what we need, doesn't He?

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  3. I love this.

    I found myself in this post over and over.

    Thank you for that on a day when I needed it.

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