I sit at my dining room table with a Pandora station playing in the background. The baby is asleep upstairs, the dog is asleep at my feet, and I really just want to go to sleep. I started back at work full-time today and Liam started at his new daycare. We're getting back into our real life routine around here.
After a busy day at work, I solo-parented tonight and I will again twice more this week. And then I will rinse and repeat for the next two months. While it's a sacrifice I'm more than willing to make for my husband, it doesn't make it any easier. It's hard and I'm tired.
If there's anything I learned about motherhood, it's that it can be exciting, exhausting, fun, hard, lonely, enriching, emotional, tiring and exciting all at the same exact time. But the hardest part is the lonely. And the lonely is amplified by the tired.
So while I want to spill words onto this page and share my scattered thoughts about what I have learned about motherhood, I just don't have them formed quite yet. I'm resting in the words of these wonderful women who have been there, done that, and are still walking through the trenches.
If you're a mother, I hope these words bring encouragement on the hard days and that they make the good days so much more good. If you're a soon-to-be mother, I hope you tuck them away to read when the days are long, hard and you're yearning for a "thank you."
These words are your "thank you" - you're doing a good job.
Before I Forget: What No One Remembers About New Motherhood by Jodi Peltason
...which inspired Before I Forget, New Mama by me.